Your Great Granny Wasn't a Cherokee Princess

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beckc_27_02-04-2026_192751: Welcome

to Queernecks, the podcast that puts

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the Yee Hall in y'all means hall.

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I'm your host, Beck,

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dash_26_02-04-2026_182752:

and I'm your host.

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Dash.

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Welcome to today's episode.

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How was school

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beckc_27_02-04-2026_192751:

Actually pretty good today.

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I've had a long

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dash_26_02-04-2026_182752: nice.

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beckc_27_02-04-2026_192751:

we had to run to Michigan this

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morning, and so we did that.

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And then we came down.

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I had to get a haircut today.

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And then I had class,

uh, our topic today was.

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Cultural appropriation and

cultural appreciation and the quote

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unquote blaccent and blackface.

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And

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dash_26_02-04-2026_182752: damn.

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beckc_27_02-04-2026_192751: it,

it, it was, it's an, it's an

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interesting lecture, I think.

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dash_26_02-04-2026_182752: is

blaccent the same as African

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American vernacular English?

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beckc_27_02-04-2026_192751: When,

but when white, people do it

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dash_26_02-04-2026_182752: Also?

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blaccent is the name of

culturally appropriating A A VE

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beckc_27_02-04-2026_192751: exactly

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like like Iggy Azalea is a big

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dash_26_02-04-2026_182752: Wow.

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Okay.

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That makes sense.

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beckc_27_02-04-2026_192751:

It's like vocal black face,

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dash_26_02-04-2026_182752: Mm-hmm.

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beckc_27_02-04-2026_192751:

Awkwafina, does it?

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dash_26_02-04-2026_182752: Awkwafina.

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Really?

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beckc_27_02-04-2026_192751: Yeah,

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dash_26_02-04-2026_182752: Okay.

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I've seen the occasional like, uh,

interaction about it on social media and

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uh, kind of understood it to be something

to do with that, but didn't know what

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the, you know, the actual thing was.

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beckc_27_02-04-2026_192751: yeah,

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dash_26_02-04-2026_182752: Ebonics?

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Do you remember when they called

it Ebonics in the nineties?

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beckc_27_02-04-2026_192751:

It's not a word we use anymore,

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dash_26_02-04-2026_182752: No,

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beckc_27_02-04-2026_192751: yeah.

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dash_26_02-04-2026_182752: is not.

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beckc_27_02-04-2026_192751: Yeah.

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Though I have to have the conversation

about I, I can't say the word, the,

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it's another word for people of color,

but then you add the ED on there.

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If you get what I'm saying, I won't say

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dash_26_02-04-2026_182752: I do.

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beckc_27_02-04-2026_192751: And

I have a policy in my class.

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If you say it one time, you

get a zero on the question.

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If you say it two times you failed

the assignment, the third time you

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do it, you get a conduct referral.

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Because I explained very clearly why

we do not use that language anymore.

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dash_26_02-04-2026_182752:

Person first language.

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beckc_27_02-04-2026_192751: yeah,

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I use the Appalachia example.

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Have you ever seen the video

pronouncing Appalachia on YouTube?

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dash_26_02-04-2026_182752: if, if there's

one in particular you're talking about,

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beckc_27_02-04-2026_192751: if you

put in, uh, pronouncing Appalachia,

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you're gonna see a lady with

red hair and a green dress on.

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And she's kind of close up to

the camera and she tells a story.

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She says.

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If you go to Ireland, right, and you

drive through the country and you wanna

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go to the Waled city the, with the,

which, uh, the Irish named after the word

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for oak tree, which is Derry, So when

the, when the English came and invaded

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and colonized Ireland, they called the

same town, London Derry, So you can go

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into Ireland and you can stop at a gas

station and you can ask for directions.

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And either way, they're gonna tell you

how to get to the Waled city, right?

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But whether you say Derry or

London Derry, you're telling that

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person your politics, probably your

religion, which history you're part

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of, how you've been socialized.

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You're telling them a lot of

things about you by one word.

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And Appalachia works exactly the same way

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dash_26_02-04-2026_182752: Hmm.

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beckc_27_02-04-2026_192751:

that with Appalachia being the,

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uh, pronunciation of, uh, uh,

what's the word I'm looking for?

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dash_26_02-04-2026_182752: It is

the colonized, I mean, like that

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pronunciation is, is it's francophone

in in origin because it's a corruption

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of, uh, Appalachia or Appalachia, which

is the, the native, the indigenous

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tribe or the indigenous people.

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It's the name of the language actually,

of the folks who lived here when these,

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these mountains or when this region,

however you wanna think about it,

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was colonized and even colonization

of something as recent as America.

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It's tricky because the, uh, so

many of those tribes or those

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family units or however they

identified themselves were nomadic.

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So who, who occupied what

land during what time period.

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I mean, it can change by as quickly

as like a hundred years or something.

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beckc_27_02-04-2026_192751: Yeah.

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dash_26_02-04-2026_182752: So

there's, there's multiple layers

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of indigeneity under every

colonized portion of this region.

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To your point, like, choosing to

pronounce it Appalachia, I know people

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who've changed the pronunciation

after learning about this.

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Is to signal an awareness of that

colonial history to also signal kind

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of a solidarity with colonized people.

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This, this region is one, two

actually of the most brutal and

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gruesome Indian removal acts, as they

were called, decimated Appalachia.

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The Trail of tears

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beckc_27_02-04-2026_192751: Right?

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dash_26_02-04-2026_182752: went, I

actually don't remember what state

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it was that it, it started in,

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beckc_27_02-04-2026_192751:

think it's North Carolina.

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dash_26_02-04-2026_182752: I, I was

gonna say North Carolina too, but

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I would Google it, but I'm afraid

to touch anything because I don't

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want this mic to just suddenly

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beckc_27_02-04-2026_192751: I can

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dash_26_02-04-2026_182752:

no longer identify as a mic.

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Okay.

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beckc_27_02-04-2026_192751: see here.

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Northwest Georgia.

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dash_26_02-04-2026_182752: I mean there's,

that's one reason like that old, uh, joke

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about how so many people in Appalachia

don't wanna identify as white trash.

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They're looking for any way to identify

as something other than white trash.

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So they, you know, everybody's got

a, a Cherokee princess and somewhere

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back in their lineage or whatever.

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It's like, no bitch.

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No you don't.

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Because the Cherokee were some

of the first ones took outta here

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beckc_27_02-04-2026_192751: right.

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dash_26_02-04-2026_182752:

long before your lily white

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indentured ancestors got here.

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I'm so sorry, but you're white trash.

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beckc_27_02-04-2026_192751: Yeah.

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I

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dash_26_02-04-2026_182752: I,

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beckc_27_02-04-2026_192751:

generations of white trash.

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dash_26_02-04-2026_182752: yeah.

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I, I could totally understand not wanting

to identify as, as white, I guess.

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And also as white trash, because

those are two different things.

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Like white trash is sort of a turd

that's been polished and is like

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waiting in line for whiteness.

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It wants to be associated with whiteness.

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It's, it's clinging to that

proximity to whiteness desperately.

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It's, it's like the, the, colorism version

of a temporarily embarrassed millionaire.

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Just a clo, you know, wait in line, be

a good little boy, lick all them boots.

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One day you'll be,

they'll pick you one day.

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They'll pick you.

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That's what running from

white trash is like.

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Just just be honest about who you are,

where your people come from, and don't

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even, there's a lot of people who

are like all in a bunch about whether

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their ancestors own slaves or not.

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Just go ahead and make the assumption

that whether they did or didn't,

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your ancestors were engaged in some

fuckery associated with slavery.

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beckc_27_02-04-2026_192751: Yeah.

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dash_26_02-04-2026_182752: Even

if they didn't own them, they

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could have been like overseers.

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They could have been well, I

forget what they were called.

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The people, the, the ones that caught

escaped slaves that became police later.

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beckc_27_02-04-2026_192751:

the, the pot Patty Rollers.

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dash_26_02-04-2026_182752:

Yeah, I think so.

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Like, just because my, you know,

poor ass ancestors didn't have

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the, the land to own slaves.

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Doesn't mean that doesn't wash 'em clean

of anything that hegemonic Whiteness did.

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And it also doesn't mean that they weren't

out there doing the same shit these folks

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are doing when they suck up to ice, when

they're sucking up to fascism right now.

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And like the, the fact that you, a

lot of y'all are still out here doing

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that shit also makes me think that

your ancestors were not blameless.

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' cause that apple didn't fall far.

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beckc_27_02-04-2026_192751: Yeah, keep

hearing people talk about when the regime

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changes, when the re, when the regime

changes, I am, I can't wait to see the

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big, beautiful obituary is all I'm saying.

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dash_26_02-04-2026_182752:

I got something to show you.

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beckc_27_02-04-2026_192751: What's that?

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Ooh.

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Where'd you get that?

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dash_26_02-04-2026_182752: Describe it

for the listeners and then I'll tell you,

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beckc_27_02-04-2026_192751: it

is a holographic kind of image.

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When you turn it one

way, it's one picture.

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When you turn it the other

way, it's another picture.

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It's a picture of Donald

Trump and it said Daddy's.

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And you turn it a little bit and it shows

a picture of Epstein and Trump Together.

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It says a pedophile.

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dash_26_02-04-2026_182752:

oh, my therapist sent me that.

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beckc_27_02-04-2026_192751: Well,

that's an interesting origin story.

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dash_26_02-04-2026_182752:

No, there's multiple of them.

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Actually.

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This one might be a little harder

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beckc_27_02-04-2026_192751:

defend the homeland.

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Join ice Today, Gestapo.

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Join Ice Obey.

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Ooh,

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dash_26_02-04-2026_182752: And

it turns into the, they live like

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lizard, skeleton, alien inside of,

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beckc_27_02-04-2026_192751: Oh yeah.

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dash_26_02-04-2026_182752: there's

one that's actually kind of difficult

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to get that, to show up on camera.

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There's one of Kristi Noem though too,

and it says this, it's the same language,

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but it's, her transition is pretty fierce.

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beckc_27_02-04-2026_192751: Yeah, that's.

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dash_26_02-04-2026_182752: I'm, I'll

link the artist, uh, or artists.

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There's a website here.

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Bad Taste, good Cause and it is some

sort of, they, their website is wacky

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and, and they are not serious about

anything, uh, apparently except for,

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you know, making fun of these folks.

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But they describe themselves

as a DEI comedy troupe that.

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They've got all kinds of stuff.

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They got stuff on Gaza, but it's

such like, it's very heavy satire.

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So like if you're not into satire

it, it goes so hard as to be

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a little bit like upsetting.

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Like this one just says

stop talking about Epstein.

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And if you weren't familiar with, uh, they

live, you'd be like, what am I looking at?

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But yeah, that showed up in my mailbox.

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Like snail mail from my therapist

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beckc_27_02-04-2026_192751:

That's awesome.

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dash_26_02-04-2026_182752: holograms.

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You know, you got the right one.

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I think they might be stickers.

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Not sure.

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I'll find out some other time.

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beckc_27_02-04-2026_192751:

How was work today for you?

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dash_26_02-04-2026_182752: it started out,

I started out okay, started out strong

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and then I fucked off the last like, two

things that I was supposed to do because

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I started hurting so bad that it made me

feel sick and I had to get up and move.

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But I'm on Zoom and so like, I like

all that stuff, they're very important

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meetings with very important people.

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Some of them, not all of them,

but, so I was like, okay,

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I'm just, I'm going to quit.

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So I rescheduled one thing, which

is fine, or it's two things.

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And then the other thing.

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You know, actually I didn't

want to go to it anyway.

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beckc_27_02-04-2026_192751:

Well, there you go.

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dash_26_02-04-2026_182752: Yeah, there's

a, this could be, this is the first

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like small school I've ever worked at.

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And it could be that this is a

common thing at a lot of schools

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this size, but people will just

put stuff on your calendar.

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They don't email you first

and say like, Hey, can we meet

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and talk about such and such?

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Or, Hey, do you have

time for this or that?

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They see an open spot on your calendar.

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They put a meeting on it.

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And there have been times when

they've, people have gone so far as

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to not say anything in the invite

about what the meeting is about.

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It's the rudest damn thing.

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beckc_27_02-04-2026_192751: Right.

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dash_26_02-04-2026_182752: So

sometimes there'll be things like that.

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And this one, maybe it was something that

would've made sense to me if I hadn't been

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like absent from work for three months.

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But I was like, this, I don't think

this has anything to do with me.

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I'm gonna skip it.

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But one of there were two minor crash

outs that led to me sort of like going,

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I need to take some time away from work

and figure out like something's going on.

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Like mental crash outs that happened

while I was at work, like on the job.

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And one of them came from a

coworker did that to me, just

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stuck something on my calendar

and it was, it was a presentation.

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And I was like, maybe they.

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They just assumed that because the

person who had this, this, the 20,

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this 25% of my job before me did it.

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That, that I knew that I was gonna

be doing it or I, where it implied

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that I had said yes to doing it.

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And like her position was

like, well, it has to be done.

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And, and on a, on a proper campus, that

doesn't mean you're obligated to me.

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Like you, I've identified you as

a subject matter expert on this.

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Therefore you are obligated

to do this for me.

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But it does here.

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I don't know why, but they don't,

they forget that we have this whole

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other main campus that has a bunch

of resources that they can draw from.

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They forget that they're also not stupid

morons who can't put a thought together.

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They forget that the, that there

are best practices collected by.

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Multiple of professional organizations

that have existed for decades.

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They don't engage with any of that stuff.

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If there's not a human being that they

can, that that like they can force it on

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on this campus, it just doesn't get done.

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And it was an lgbtq i a twos plus training

and I'm like, I mean I could do this.

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But also you've got YouTube and the

Safe Zone project exists and I didn't

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have any, uh, like support on, you know,

finding this person and going like, what?

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I can't do, I didn't agree to do that.

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It just appeared on my thing.

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And so I just was like,

fine, fuck it, I'll do it.

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And they showed up with the students.

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And the students were the rudest

damn bunch I have ever taught.

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beckc_27_02-04-2026_192751: Oh wow.

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That's saying

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dash_26_02-04-2026_182752: ever.

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I have taught middle schoolers in

Upward Bound that showed me more

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respect than this bunch of students did.

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And there were two chaperones that

were our students and then there

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was the full-time staff member

that was my colleague, uh, and.

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Did nothing to intervene.

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And so I'm going through like, okay,

normally I would, it would be a discussion

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and it would be like, okay, so what,

what are some other words for, uh,

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you know, lesbian, right here's talk.

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Basically I was going over language,

they were new to campus and I was

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basically being like, here's some

appropriate ways to describe things.

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Here's some things you might hear.

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Here's some things that you know,

are, would go over like reclaiming

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slurs and queer and yada yada.

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Like baby bunny shit.

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Seriously.

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Could have been a YouTube video.

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And when I would say things

like that, like they would say

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slurs, they would intentionally

choose to say slurs and stuff.

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And when I was describing trans

people and non-binary people,

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they started like laughing and

like whispering to each other.

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and I looked at, at my colleague and

she was just looking at her phone.

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And I could feel I was

like, something's wrong.

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I don't have the patience

I would normally have.

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It's my job to let people call me

fucking slurs and stuff, right?

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Like, I've spent, uh, 12 years doing this.

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I want out, but I understand

that I'm not out yet of it.

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And so I was like, I'm

getting really angry.

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And so I tried a couple times to

like bring them back in and it was

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only halfway through the presentation

and I was like getting very angry.

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And so finally I said 45% of our

students identify as LGBTQIA twos,

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plus every single room you're in while

you're here, there will be at least one

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of these people in the room with you.

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I hope your attitude changes between

now and the first time that happens.

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And then I took them on a tour of the

Gaysement and I kicked them the fuck out.

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And I was ne I've never done that before.

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I've never ended a training early.

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I've never, or a presentation, I've

never, nobody has ever gotten to me.

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People have, have threatened to

physically assault me in a training

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over, over how uncomfortable their

unlearning was over how stressful it is.

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Usually I can, I can manage big emotions,

but I, I was like, I, I'm about to

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lose my temper and that is not good.

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It's not safe at all.

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And by safe, I mean, I wouldn't have

physically harmed them, but like the

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things I can say to a young person.

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That will fuck them forever.

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I don't ever want to be in a

position to feel like I've done that.

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beckc_27_02-04-2026_192751: Right.

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I'll spare you the details, but in

the middle of my dad dying I had a bit

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of a mental break myself and one of

my bosses showed me a lot of grace.

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because I, I did not handle

myself with beautiful conduct.

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It, it was just a, a,

a bad choice of words.

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And I, I, understood, he, he

sent me an email and he was

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like, do you wanna explain this?

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And I was like, well, I had

kept him that what was really

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happening in my life, you know?

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And there was just trauma

after trauma after trauma.

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dash_26_02-04-2026_182752: Yeah.

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beckc_27_02-04-2026_192751: I,

I cracked and it was some girl

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I was trying to show a movie.

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It wasn't even my class.

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I was trying to show a movie and

some girl got loud out in the

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hallway and it made me very angry

I ran my mouth and they showed me a

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lot of grace for that, so,

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dash_26_02-04-2026_182752: that's good.

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you know, we have more,

we have power, right?

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We have influence and we have

status and stuff over the students.

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And so like, we could be struggling or

whatever, and we should have the, the,

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the space, I guess the safety net, the

length of rope to have a bad fucking day.

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But we don't,

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beckc_27_02-04-2026_192751: yeah.

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dash_26_02-04-2026_182752: right?

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and I was so on all the time and nobody

was helping this person, that thing

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she was doing that was 100% of her job.

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The thing I was doing there that

day was one of the five things

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that I am assistant director of

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: 00:17:19

that I was so behind on.

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: 00:17:21

I was so behind on everything because

people kept doing shit like that to me.

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and because somebody thought it was

a great idea to shove a bunch of

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impossible shit into one job description.

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: 00:17:31

beckc_27_02-04-2026_192751: Right.

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dash_26_02-04-2026_182752:

So I was like, I never talked

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to students like that before.

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And I, I never, I mean, I, I

know that I'm, I'm evil, right?

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There's a monster inside me that like,

uh, has been fed a bunch of trauma

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and is looking for victims sometimes.

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Like when that kid said, uh, you

look like you're from Kentucky.

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I was like, you don't

know what's inside here.

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: 00:17:54

You don't know what it wants to do to you.

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: 00:17:56

beckc_27_02-04-2026_192751: Yeah,

there's a kid from my hometown in

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one of my classes this semester.

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: 00:18:01

dash_26_02-04-2026_182752: Cool.

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beckc_27_02-04-2026_192751: He's

cousins with one, the girl that sat

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next to me all through high school.

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' cause it's a small town, you

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: 00:18:07

dash_26_02-04-2026_182752: Yeah.

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beckc_27_02-04-2026_192751: If he is not

my cousin, he has to be the cousin of

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: 00:18:09

somebody I know I have 41 first cousins.

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: 00:18:13

But I thought that was interesting.

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: 00:18:14

I, we were talking and he said, I

said, somebody asked me where I was

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from and I was like, I'm 70, my 75

miles straight south of Columbus.

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: 00:18:22

And he, after class, he was

like, where are you from?

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And I was like, you know the

Lucasville Portsmouth area?

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: 00:18:26

And he was like, I'm from Rosemount.

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: 00:18:28

And like, that's like five minutes away.

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: 00:18:30

It's the town between Lucasville

and Portsmouth where the

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McDonald's is and about.

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Not much, not much else.

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: 00:18:35

That McDonald's is famous

of being the child.

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The child drop off point

for a lot of people.

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: 00:18:40

when you, exchange for the

weekend when dad comes to

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: 00:18:43

dash_26_02-04-2026_182752: Oh,

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: 00:18:43

beckc_27_02-04-2026_192751:

'em up or whatever?

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: 00:18:44

dash_26_02-04-2026_182752: right.

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: 00:18:44

beckc_27_02-04-2026_192751: Yeah.

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: 00:18:45

It's a, it's a neutral spot.

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: 00:18:46

I've known several people that used that.

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: 00:18:48

Places for that.

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: 00:18:49

dash_26_02-04-2026_182752: That's funny.

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: 00:18:50

beckc_27_02-04-2026_192751: I

got a book in the mail today.

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: 00:18:52

dash_26_02-04-2026_182752: What'd you get?

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beckc_27_02-04-2026_192751:

It is called Black the

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: 00:18:56

Un Whitewashed Story of

America by Michael Harriet.

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: 00:18:59

dash_26_02-04-2026_182752: cool.

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: 00:19:00

beckc_27_02-04-2026_192751:

Yes, I'm excited to read it.

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: 00:19:03

What

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: 00:19:03

with this, all this free time I have,

404

: 00:19:05

dash_26_02-04-2026_182752:

Is that for your dis?

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: 00:19:06

beckc_27_02-04-2026_192751: It

can be, I'm gonna make it so

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: 00:19:08

dash_26_02-04-2026_182752: Yeah.

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: 00:19:09

I was reading about, I don't

remember her first name.

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This black musician in Seattle who

was like, she's, she's credited

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: 00:19:18

as the godmother of grunge.

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: 00:19:20

beckc_27_02-04-2026_192751: Oh yeah.

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: 00:19:21

dash_26_02-04-2026_182752:

Tina Bell is her name.

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She had a band called Bam Bam.

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: 00:19:26

She passed not recently, but

like she is no longer with us.

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: 00:19:31

She died about 13 years ago.

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: 00:19:34

But yeah.

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: 00:19:34

So I'm gonna, I'm gonna go on a

deep dive of her music ' cause uh,

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: 00:19:39

the, the students are into music.

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: 00:19:42

This year.

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: 00:19:42

And that's, that's cool.

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: 00:19:44

I can work with that.

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: 00:19:45

So we're doing playlists and, you

know, making like, okay, so some

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: 00:19:50

low-fi jams to study to, or, you know,

taking your, angsty cold ass walk

423

: 00:19:57

for your mental health, like, uh,

making playlists to share for that.

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: 00:20:01

beckc_27_02-04-2026_192751: That

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: 00:20:01

sounds like fun.

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: 00:20:02

dash_26_02-04-2026_182752: And I also

made, made a movie list for Black

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: 00:20:05

History Month for the students that's

why I asked you if you'd seen 42.

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: 00:20:09

I put that one on there.

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: 00:20:11

beckc_27_02-04-2026_192751: Oh, yeah,

I've, I, I wrote a whole 25 page paper

430

: 00:20:14

about the use of the N word in that movie.

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: 00:20:16

dash_26_02-04-2026_182752: Wow.

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: 00:20:17

beckc_27_02-04-2026_192751: Yeah, like

there are some scenes, like there's,

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: 00:20:20

there's one scene when Jackie first joins

the league, one of the managers, I forget

434

: 00:20:25

the number now, but it was like 48 times.

435

: 00:20:27

He uses that word in one scene and

it's, it's, it's the, it's Jackie

436

: 00:20:32

putting up with it, you know,

437

: 00:20:33

dash_26_02-04-2026_182752: Yeah.

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: 00:20:34

beckc_27_02-04-2026_192751: the,

the patients of a freaking saint.

439

: 00:20:36

And what I realized is that I was so angry

that they put that in there, that it was

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: 00:20:40

such a, my first thought wa was that it

was a gratuitous use of that word, right?

441

: 00:20:45

And I was like, it didn't fit there.

442

: 00:20:46

And then I thought that

really was his experience.

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: 00:20:49

That was what he dealt with.

444

: 00:20:50

And if it makes me uncomfortable for

the three minutes I have to watch it.

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: 00:20:53

Just imagine what he felt

when he was going through it

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: 00:20:56

dash_26_02-04-2026_182752: Mm-hmm.

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: 00:20:58

beckc_27_02-04-2026_192751:

like, that, that's one of

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: 00:20:59

the best scenes in the movie.

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: 00:21:00

dash_26_02-04-2026_182752: Yep.

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: 00:21:01

There's a, there's a pedagogy to

using uncomfortable language in film.

451

: 00:21:07

Right.

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: 00:21:07

And, and making, especially like

a, a, there's a, it's, there's a

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: 00:21:11

critical whiteness pedagogy to it.

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: 00:21:13

just, can you even imagine this?

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: 00:21:15

I've been thinking lately you know

how people are pointing out that

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: 00:21:20

because of Renee Goode specifically,

or especially, white people are sort

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: 00:21:26

of going like, oh, so we can just be

killed in the streets now from minding

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: 00:21:30

our business and not doing anything.

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: 00:21:32

You know, and people of color

in America specifically, black

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: 00:21:35

people are like, yeah, that's

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: 00:21:38

beckc_27_02-04-2026_192751:

to the Fucking club.

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: 00:21:39

dash_26_02-04-2026_182752: right.

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: 00:21:40

beckc_27_02-04-2026_192751:

I pointed that,

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: 00:21:41

exact fact out to my classes this week.

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: 00:21:43

dash_26_02-04-2026_182752: Yeah,

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: 00:21:44

beckc_27_02-04-2026_192751: fact.

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: 00:21:45

dash_26_02-04-2026_182752: that,

and then I'm also noticing a lot

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: 00:21:48

of cis women, especially cis like

liberal white women of uh, kind of.

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: 00:21:55

Means or affluence, not like super rich.

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: 00:21:58

'cause I don't know very many rich

people, but because of being in academia

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: 00:22:03

and also being in podcasting space,

I have friends who have, they grew

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: 00:22:08

up wildly different than me, right?

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: 00:22:10

Like when we would go to events and

stuff together, go to see a show or

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: 00:22:14

something, like they're, they're in

Chicago renting out hotels and I'm

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: 00:22:17

in the hostel, They're now they're

talking about this Save the Save act.

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: 00:22:22

And there's also a kind of

gotcha rhetoric that they'll do.

477

: 00:22:27

I've seen this one on TikTok where

they're like something like you, I bet

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: 00:22:30

you can't name a, uh, rule or law that.

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: 00:22:36

Go governs men's health or

bodies that changes by state.

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: 00:22:41

But there is for women, right?

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: 00:22:43

Like, and they're referring to abortion,

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: 00:22:45

beckc_27_02-04-2026_192751: not just

that if, if a woman wants to get a

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: 00:22:47

hysterectomy or whatever, they just

won't let 'em, you know what I mean?

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: 00:22:50

dash_26_02-04-2026_182752: Yeah.

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: 00:22:51

beckc_27_02-04-2026_192751: and yeah.

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: 00:22:51

So there's

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: 00:22:52

lots of ways that the, the rules are

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: 00:22:54

different for men and women.

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: 00:22:56

dash_26_02-04-2026_182752: the save

act is, uh, like if you, if you have

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: 00:23:01

changed your name because of marriage,

but you didn't update your birth

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: 00:23:03

certificate, then you'll have issues

registering to vote and stuff like that.

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: 00:23:08

Or, or being allowed to vote and.

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: 00:23:12

I'm just thinking like

that's the trans experience.

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: 00:23:15

That has been the trans

experience all along, right?

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: 00:23:19

Like we choose where we live based

on whether someone is allowed

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: 00:23:24

to let us die in an emergency

room for religious reasons.

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: 00:23:28

uh, that's why I was, I was terrified

to have this surgery in North Dakota.

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: 00:23:31

I filled out a DNR because if somebody

had a religious objection to me, to me

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: 00:23:38

being transgender and I needed emergency,

like resuscitation or something during

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: 00:23:44

surgery, they could, they had the

right to let me die because they didn't

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: 00:23:49

want to touch me, or their religion

says that I shouldn't exist at all.

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: 00:23:55

Right?

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: 00:23:56

And so I'm just thinking

about this and how.

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: 00:24:00

It's scary for them.

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: 00:24:01

I know.

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: 00:24:01

It's scary, right?

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: 00:24:02

It's scary for us.

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: 00:24:03

It's always been scary.

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: 00:24:04

I know.

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: 00:24:04

It sucks to find out that your rights are

not as solid as you thought they were.

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: 00:24:08

I know it's scary to see people who look

like you be executed in the streets when

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: 00:24:15

that's not really been the case before.

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: 00:24:17

But had you come along with us

back when we were begging you to

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: 00:24:22

be our allies, you wouldn't be as

gooped and plucked about this now.

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: 00:24:28

You wouldn't be as shocked.

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: 00:24:29

You'd be more prepared.

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: 00:24:31

beckc_27_02-04-2026_192751:

That's absolutely Right.

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: 00:24:32

dash_26_02-04-2026_182752: So like when

black women were begging y'all to come

519

: 00:24:36

and you know, support their Black Lives

Matter and stuff like that, you could

520

: 00:24:41

have done been new about all this stuff.

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: 00:24:43

You could have been prepared when trans

people were trying to tell you that like

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: 00:24:49

what was happening to their healthcare

was going to affect more than just them.

523

: 00:24:54

maybe even just begging you to give a

fuck, you could have already learned

524

: 00:24:57

what you needed to do to be prepared

for this, but you didn't because

525

: 00:25:00

your privilege kind of protected you.

526

: 00:25:02

Until now.

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: 00:25:03

I still don't want to be

like, nanny, nanny, boo boo.

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: 00:25:06

That's not what I'm intending here.

529

: 00:25:08

beckc_27_02-04-2026_192751: Right.

530

: 00:25:09

dash_26_02-04-2026_182752: Nobody,

nobody should be losing their rights

531

: 00:25:16

is somebody coughing.

532

: 00:25:18

beckc_27_02-04-2026_192751: That's we,

she's on a medicine right now 'cause

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: 00:25:21

she has a little bit of a cough.

534

: 00:25:22

dash_26_02-04-2026_182752: I was exposed

to my first ever, uh, or to my, to the, my

535

: 00:25:28

first like cigarette smell since quitting

536

: 00:25:31

beckc_27_02-04-2026_192751: How'd that go?

537

: 00:25:32

dash_26_02-04-2026_182752: it was nasty.

538

: 00:25:34

beckc_27_02-04-2026_192751: Yeah.

539

: 00:25:35

dash_26_02-04-2026_182752:

somebody drove by.

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: 00:25:37

I was walking back from the

store I haven't been wa craving a

541

: 00:25:41

cigarette or anything like that.

542

: 00:25:42

But the other night I've

been having weird dreams.

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: 00:25:44

I had a dream that I

was craving a cigarette.

544

: 00:25:46

Like in the dream, I was like,

man, I really want a cigarette.

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: 00:25:49

But I was talking myself

outta buying them, you know?

546

: 00:25:51

And then I woke up.

547

: 00:25:52

What the, was,

548

: 00:25:54

beckc_27_02-04-2026_192751: The

funniest dream I've ever had had

549

: 00:25:55

to do with buying cigarettes.

550

: 00:25:57

dash_26_02-04-2026_182752: was

this the, the meatloaf one.

551

: 00:25:58

beckc_27_02-04-2026_192751: Yeah.

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: 00:25:59

Yeah.

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: 00:26:00

, I dreamed that I stopped at

a speedway in Portsmouth.

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: 00:26:03

And asked for a pack of Marlboros

555

: 00:26:04

she was like 4 95 or whatever, and I

pulled out a hunk of meatloaf out of

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: 00:26:08

my pocket and, and, and pulled off

a, a chunk of it and paid with that.

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: 00:26:13

dash_26_02-04-2026_182752: Do you

think like dreams, do you think

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: 00:26:14

they all mean something specific?

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: 00:26:16

Like are they, are they all

always like us trying to tell or

560

: 00:26:21

beckc_27_02-04-2026_192751: I don't

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: 00:26:21

think every dream is, but

I think some dreams are.

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: 00:26:25

Like,

563

: 00:26:25

dash_26_02-04-2026_182752: yeah.

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: 00:26:26

beckc_27_02-04-2026_192751:

brother died, I dreamed of water

565

: 00:26:28

like almost every night and our

bridges or, or something like that.

566

: 00:26:33

And when I, when I had the

thought, it's all water under

567

: 00:26:36

the bridge now, they went away.

568

: 00:26:38

dash_26_02-04-2026_182752: Yeah.

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: 00:26:39

I think like we work on stuff, I guess

like unconsciously while we're asleep

570

: 00:26:45

sometimes, and it comes out in our dreams.

571

: 00:26:48

I also think that's true that we have

a lot more dreams than we remember.

572

: 00:26:52

I go through these phases where I

don't remember anything at all from

573

: 00:26:56

being asleep, but I know I dream.

574

: 00:26:58

beckc_27_02-04-2026_192751: Well, I

take a medicine to help me not remember

575

: 00:27:00

my dreams because I remember them so

vividly, and I have a lot of nightmares.

576

: 00:27:05

It, it doesn't always work, but I'm, it's,

they're less wild than they used to be.

577

: 00:27:09

No meatloaf dreams recently.

578

: 00:27:11

dash_26_02-04-2026_182752: Have you

ever taken uh, fuck, what's it called?

579

: 00:27:14

Melatonin for sleep.

580

: 00:27:16

beckc_27_02-04-2026_192751: No.

581

: 00:27:17

I, I think I did one time and

didn't feel anything and just never,

582

: 00:27:21

dash_26_02-04-2026_182752: It doesn't

put me to sleep, but it makes me dream.

583

: 00:27:25

So I'll like be awake,

but I'll start dreaming.

584

: 00:27:29

Absolutely horrifying experience and I can

feel myself like needing to go to sleep.

585

: 00:27:34

But it, it, it doesn't

actually put you to sleep.

586

: 00:27:37

I think it just starts the REM cycle,

whether your body likes it or not.

587

: 00:27:42

So I have not taken that in a long time.

588

: 00:27:44

Of course, I also, Jesus

Christ, these days I'm going

589

: 00:27:47

to bed at like nine o'clock,

590

: 00:27:49

beckc_27_02-04-2026_192751: Yeah,

591

: 00:27:50

dash_26_02-04-2026_182752: 8 30, 8 30.

592

: 00:27:51

I'm sitting here nodding

off in front of the tv.

593

: 00:27:53

I don't what happened to us.

594

: 00:27:56

beckc_27_02-04-2026_192751: I, I used

to get off work at: 1130

595

: 00:28:00

Huntington and go to the bar, shut

it down, and then drive an hour back

596

: 00:28:03

home and then get up and do all that

shit all over again the next day,

597

: 00:28:07

dash_26_02-04-2026_182752: Yeah.

598

: 00:28:08

beckc_27_02-04-2026_192751: I would

599

: 00:28:08

dash_26_02-04-2026_182752: Yep.

600

: 00:28:09

beckc_27_02-04-2026_192751:

trying to do that.

601

: 00:28:10

dash_26_02-04-2026_182752: I used to work

second shift at the bowling alley for

602

: 00:28:13

years, but like the first probably three

years I worked at the bowling alley.

603

: 00:28:17

I, I worked I would come in at five or

six and then we'd close at 1:00 AM and.

604

: 00:28:25

It would take us until 2:00 AM to clean

up everything because people would go

605

: 00:28:30

to this bowling alley to get turned.

606

: 00:28:32

And just, it was a

redneck ass bowling alley.

607

: 00:28:35

Uh, and it had a bar

in it called Champions.

608

: 00:28:39

And I worked there through the recession

and so they slowly cut down all the staff.

609

: 00:28:43

I was the mechanic, but if somebody barfed

in the bar, I had to go clean that up.

610

: 00:28:48

'Cause I was also what

they call the porter.

611

: 00:28:51

And so I had to shut down

that entire building.

612

: 00:28:54

Took me an hour at least.

613

: 00:28:56

And so then you're wired, you

know, after doing that, 'cause

614

: 00:28:59

it is physically demanding.

615

: 00:29:01

So I get home at like two 30 in the

morning and I'm not sleeping right.

616

: 00:29:05

I'm too like, and so that's how I kind

of started like drinking myself to sleep.

617

: 00:29:09

I would just, I would start

drinking as soon as I got home.

618

: 00:29:12

And then usually by the time the sun came

up, I could go to sleep and then I would

619

: 00:29:17

get up at like 3:00 PM and do it again.

620

: 00:29:19

beckc_27_02-04-2026_192751: Yeah.

621

: 00:29:20

dash_26_02-04-2026_182752: God,

the thought of that right now,

622

: 00:29:21

I would, I would probably take my

life if I, if you found a way to

623

: 00:29:28

force me into some shit like that.

624

: 00:29:30

beckc_27_02-04-2026_192751: Yeah.

625

: 00:29:31

When I used to work for amazon.com

626

: 00:29:33

customer serWeicz in West Virginia.

627

: 00:29:35

And we didn't get off until

like two o'clock in the morning.

628

: 00:29:38

Shanna and I both worked there and I, we

ate so much Taco Bell during those years.

629

: 00:29:43

It was ridiculous 'cause that was,

nobody was open at that time of night.

630

: 00:29:47

It was Taco Bell or this, this hometown

restaurant called Dwight's, where a

631

: 00:29:51

cheeseburger was huge, but it was like

$20 for that and some fries or whatever.

632

: 00:29:56

and you can only eat that so many

times before you gain 80 pounds.

633

: 00:30:00

So,

634

: 00:30:01

dash_26_02-04-2026_182752: Yeah.

635

: 00:30:01

Taco Bell, staying open until 4:00

AM was a game changer in Richmond.

636

: 00:30:05

beckc_27_02-04-2026_192751: yeah.

637

: 00:30:05

dash_26_02-04-2026_182752: Like get,

get that to eat on the way home.

638

: 00:30:09

And that, like, that was a pretty

unhealthy point in my life because all,

639

: 00:30:16

most of my calories came from booze.

640

: 00:30:19

And my job was so physically demanding

because the first few, several hours of

641

: 00:30:25

the shift it was a 32 lane bowling alley.

642

: 00:30:29

beckc_27_02-04-2026_192751: Wow.

643

: 00:30:29

dash_26_02-04-2026_182752: yeah.

644

: 00:30:30

And during, say like Monday nights

was, uh, the men's league it,

645

: 00:30:35

that they filled the bowling alley

and I would be the only mechanic.

646

: 00:30:41

And if there was breakdowns or stops or

something like that on the pin setters.

647

: 00:30:46

I'd have to sprint down to lane one

because the mechanic shop was on Lane 32.

648

: 00:30:51

It wasn't in the middle like it

was on a lot of regular houses.

649

: 00:30:54

Like the first welling house I worked

at, it was right in the middle.

650

: 00:30:57

So either way you turn out the door,

you could get there pretty quick.

651

: 00:31:01

The mechanic shop was at the end

of the building off of Lane 32 and

652

: 00:31:05

the men's league was always started

at the other end of the house.

653

: 00:31:09

So I sprinted back and forth for

three hours straight sprinted.

654

: 00:31:14

Just trying to like keep all these

like just pins getting tossed or

655

: 00:31:18

something like that, or ball returns.

656

: 00:31:20

You're obviously not doing major

repairs during, but God, wobo tide you

657

: 00:31:24

something actually breaks down and you

have to move them lanes or something.

658

: 00:31:29

Like if it's a full house, we would

keep one set of lanes for breakdowns,

659

: 00:31:34

but if something was broken when

I came in, 'cause the dudes who

660

: 00:31:37

worked the night shift or not.

661

: 00:31:39

Trained well enough to actually

troubleshoot and do large repairs.

662

: 00:31:44

And I actually became the person who

did that on day shift because I taught

663

: 00:31:48

myself how to do it on night shift.

664

: 00:31:50

So I got moved to be the head mechanic

on day shift after a couple years

665

: 00:31:55

because I did work Monday nights and

they was, they would always give away

666

: 00:32:00

those fucking breakdown lanes and

something would inevitably break because

667

: 00:32:04

the GSX pin setter is half plastic

668

: 00:32:07

piece of shit and it is all plastic

and, and, specialty switches and they

669

: 00:32:14

wouldn't let us buy a new solenoids.

670

: 00:32:15

So we like invented a process.

671

: 00:32:18

It's.

672

: 00:32:18

It's a little like a coil of copper

basically, or some sort of hyper

673

: 00:32:23

conducting metal that can hold a charge.

674

: 00:32:27

So like if we would use them to open

and close the pin holders based on,

675

: 00:32:33

so the switch would tell it open and

close, and so the hood would fire

676

: 00:32:36

a pin based on whatever, uh, signal

it received or take the pin back.

677

: 00:32:41

And so that's how the, the pins

would go up like this open and then

678

: 00:32:46

go back, what is this horizontal

and then leave the pin there.

679

: 00:32:50

And so if that was malfunctioning,

it would do this, not let

680

: 00:32:53

go of the pin come back out.

681

: 00:32:55

So it thinks it did its job and

there's no fucking pins there.

682

: 00:32:58

So, and it, and it could, there's a

million things in that one process that.

683

: 00:33:03

Break.

684

: 00:33:04

First of all, those pin flaps, they're

plastic, the whole pin holder is plastic.

685

: 00:33:08

The switch could tear out, the

wiring could tear out, the solenoid

686

: 00:33:12

could burn itself out because it's,

it really is like a hundred feet

687

: 00:33:17

of copper wire coiled together.

688

: 00:33:19

And so after so many charges, the

plastic coating on it can like

689

: 00:33:24

melt or something, and then it

just itself, and then it's no good.

690

: 00:33:28

So we would pull the covering off, take

a Dremel and scrape it back, uh, to find

691

: 00:33:35

where the short was, and then solder it

back together, put new heat shrink wrap

692

: 00:33:40

around it instead of buying new solenoids

because the recession was so bad, we

693

: 00:33:44

couldn't afford stuff to repair it.

694

: 00:33:46

beckc_27_02-04-2026_192751: Wow.

695

: 00:33:53

dash_26_02-04-2026_182752: Like we

did all kinds of redneck shit back

696

: 00:33:55

there and sometimes we did it for

fun 'cause we also, you can't leave

697

: 00:33:58

the shop whenever league's in play.

698

: 00:34:00

And so if things are going

good, you're just bored.

699

: 00:34:02

And so we would clean and do stuff like

repair solenoids, but we also built a

700

: 00:34:08

motorcycle out of spare pin setter parts.

701

: 00:34:15

We didn't go to school for half of the

stuff that we were doing back there.

702

: 00:34:19

So, uh, we taught ourselves how

to it's called arc welding, some

703

: 00:34:22

people call it stick welding.

704

: 00:34:24

So you just take, it's a

current pretty high current.

705

: 00:34:27

They look like jumper cables.

706

: 00:34:28

They are put one on whatever you're

welding, and the other's a ground on the

707

: 00:34:33

on this like big generator, put, uh, a rod

in the other one and then put it on the,

708

: 00:34:41

the metal and you can weld it that way.

709

: 00:34:44

And so just through trial and

error on broken pieces, we

710

: 00:34:48

would learn how to, to weld.

711

: 00:34:50

And those frames, they're

really, really good steel.

712

: 00:34:55

And so this crazy dude who was my

supervisor for a long time, like

713

: 00:35:01

one of the reddest people I've

ever met, just absolute redneck.

714

: 00:35:04

He, like, he and his dad grew

weed up on his dad's property.

715

: 00:35:09

He lived in a camper.

716

: 00:35:11

He didn't have a driver's license.

717

: 00:35:12

He just like drove with this motorcycle

to work every morning and then he would

718

: 00:35:16

go into the shower and shower at work

because he lived in a camper in the woods.

719

: 00:35:21

it's like he just wandered in

from the hills and was like, yeah,

720

: 00:35:24

I can fix literally anything.

721

: 00:35:26

So yeah.

722

: 00:35:26

So he, this, this was a

redneck bowling alley,

723

: 00:35:29

beckc_27_02-04-2026_192751:

It sounds like it.

724

: 00:35:31

dash_26_02-04-2026_182752: so he

brought in a little engine, just

725

: 00:35:33

a two stroke and got a a rear

tire with the chain to put on it.

726

: 00:35:39

And then I fabricated a brake system and

he, some, somebody brought in like a, a

727

: 00:35:45

go-kart steering wheel and we just slowly

over the course of a season built this

728

: 00:35:52

thing and then we would drive it around.

729

: 00:35:54

But I don't know, I wonder

what happened to it.

730

: 00:35:58

Can you imagine?

731

: 00:35:58

Like, because this was all

going on behind the building.

732

: 00:36:02

And so most customers wouldn't

drive around that far.

733

: 00:36:05

beckc_27_02-04-2026_192751: Right.

734

: 00:36:06

dash_26_02-04-2026_182752: had these

big bay doors talking about dreams.

735

: 00:36:08

I dream about that workplace a lot.

736

: 00:36:10

beckc_27_02-04-2026_192751: Yeah.

737

: 00:36:11

I dream about college campuses a lot.

738

: 00:36:14

I

739

: 00:36:14

dash_26_02-04-2026_182752: Yeah.

740

: 00:36:14

beckc_27_02-04-2026_192751: dreams

that they're like student dreams, but

741

: 00:36:17

they're the, the professor version now.

742

: 00:36:19

Like I dream that I show up

and don't have the exams, which

743

: 00:36:22

happened to me last semester.

744

: 00:36:24

dash_26_02-04-2026_182752: Yeah,

745

: 00:36:25

I remember,

746

: 00:36:25

beckc_27_02-04-2026_192751: yeah,

I had an 8:00 AM final and I got

747

: 00:36:27

halfway there and realized I left the

tests sitting on my table here, and

748

: 00:36:31

dash_26_02-04-2026_182752: oh man,

749

: 00:36:32

beckc_27_02-04-2026_192751: around and

go back and so I, to make up for it

750

: 00:36:36

since y'all had to sit there for a half

an hour, I was like, I'll, I'll give you

751

: 00:36:39

full credit for the, uh, essay question.

752

: 00:36:41

Just do the rest of it.

753

: 00:36:42

And they, nobody was mad at

me anymore after that, so,

754

: 00:36:45

dash_26_02-04-2026_182752: I used to hear

the sound of pins of a, of a, a bowling

755

: 00:36:49

ball hitting the pins in my sleep or

like, as I was falling asleep, you know.

756

: 00:36:54

Have you heard of exploding head syndrome?

757

: 00:36:56

Uh.

758

: 00:36:57

beckc_27_02-04-2026_192751: no.

759

: 00:36:58

dash_26_02-04-2026_182752: It's,

it's just a neurological thing where

760

: 00:37:00

sometimes people will suddenly hear a

really loud sound, like their head's

761

: 00:37:05

exploding, but there's no sound.

762

: 00:37:06

It's just in their head.

763

: 00:37:07

beckc_27_02-04-2026_192751: Oh

764

: 00:37:08

dash_26_02-04-2026_182752:

It sounds terrifying.

765

: 00:37:09

I don't think I had that or anything, but

I, if sometimes if I was falling asleep,

766

: 00:37:12

you know, like you do the little twitches

and things as you're falling asleep,

767

: 00:37:15

and I would hear that clear as day, that

sound of a 16 pound bowling ball hitting

768

: 00:37:21

all 10 pins the way like the polyurethane

pins sound as opposed to the wood ones.

769

: 00:37:28

I do kind of miss working on pin

setters because it was so, I'm not

770

: 00:37:32

gonna say simple, like troubleshooting

is one of my favorite things.

771

: 00:37:37

beckc_27_02-04-2026_192751: I think

the reason that, because I like

772

: 00:37:39

to bake when I'm working heavily.

773

: 00:37:41

I think it's because in our work it's

never finished and those kinds of jobs,

774

: 00:37:46

you start it, there's a beginning,

there's an end, and you finish it, right?

775

: 00:37:51

And, and you go on about your life.

776

: 00:37:52

And I think that we crave

that sometimes because there's

777

: 00:37:54

so little of it in academia.

778

: 00:37:57

goes on and on forever, my friend.

779

: 00:37:59

It's the song that never ends.

780

: 00:38:01

dash_26_02-04-2026_182752: Yeah,

There's kind of a narrative arc to

781

: 00:38:04

troubleshooting or making something,

782

: 00:38:06

beckc_27_02-04-2026_192751: Mm-hmm.

783

: 00:38:07

dash_26_02-04-2026_182752: but I never

I didn't learn anything about engines

784

: 00:38:10

though, like combustion, I don't

know shit about combustion engines.

785

: 00:38:14

Like motors, electric belts.

786

: 00:38:16

I got you.

787

: 00:38:17

But.

788

: 00:38:17

beckc_27_02-04-2026_192751: My dad

wanted to teach me about motors,

789

: 00:38:19

and I had no interest whatsoever.

790

: 00:38:22

His knowledge was just wasted

because I have no interest.

791

: 00:38:25

dash_26_02-04-2026_182752: You know,

like my interest in doing anything

792

: 00:38:29

has arrived way too late in life to,

to really be of any use to anybody.

793

: 00:38:33

And I think it's because I transitioned

so late in life, like before that I

794

: 00:38:36

was just trying to like not be noticed.

795

: 00:38:39

Even the fact that I became, so I was the

only female pennett mechanic that anybody

796

: 00:38:45

at Brunswick or Ace Mitchell had heard of.

797

: 00:38:48

People would ride along with the

ACE Mitchell salespeople from

798

: 00:38:53

Akron, from the Ohio territory to

see the female pennett mechanic

799

: 00:38:57

beckc_27_02-04-2026_192751: Oh, wow.

800

: 00:38:58

dash_26_02-04-2026_182752:

and like quizzed me and shit.

801

: 00:39:00

the dude who he picked me out of all

the dudes, I was the only obviously

802

: 00:39:04

the only person who was an cis guy

who worked in the shop and, uh.

803

: 00:39:10

He had to kind of defend picking me

to be his apprentice when several

804

: 00:39:16

of the guys wanted the position.

805

: 00:39:19

But I remember one of the things

he said was like, first of

806

: 00:39:22

all, you actually listen to me.

807

: 00:39:24

Like Cis guy culture is very

like, I already know everything I

808

: 00:39:27

need to know and you should want

me because I'm already the best.

809

: 00:39:31

Not because you know, I'm a good

learner, I'm a fast learner.

810

: 00:39:35

And then he also said like,

there was plenty I didn't know

811

: 00:39:37

about using various tools.

812

: 00:39:39

I didn't know how to weld or whatever.

813

: 00:39:40

But he said, you learning curve is

a vertical line, which might be the

814

: 00:39:45

nicest thing anybody's ever said to me.

815

: 00:39:49

So he was like, I will take that any day.

816

: 00:39:52

beckc_27_02-04-2026_192751: Well,

did you see the comment We got

817

: 00:39:53

on our, on our newsletter today?

818

: 00:39:55

I, I got an email.

819

: 00:39:56

I don't know if you got an email.

820

: 00:39:58

dash_26_02-04-2026_182752: Uh, I

just actually saw that a minute

821

: 00:40:00

ago from neur Neural Foundry.

822

: 00:40:03

beckc_27_02-04-2026_192751: Yeah.

823

: 00:40:04

dash_26_02-04-2026_182752: Yeah.

824

: 00:40:05

Very nice.

825

: 00:40:06

They were, they were appreciating

the one lane bridge bit.

826

: 00:40:09

And also commented on my, I don't

know what I'm doing with this,

827

: 00:40:15

this, like, I was thinking about

soap operas and then thinking about

828

: 00:40:19

like how sponsors like coming up.

829

: 00:40:21

It's fun to come up with them and stuff

like that, but like, where do they go?

830

: 00:40:24

I think back about old sponsors sometimes,

so I was just like, well, maybe I'll

831

: 00:40:30

turn them into little anthropomorphic.

832

: 00:40:33

So we got episode one today, so

let's see what I've done here.

833

: 00:40:36

So welcome to the first episode of

the exciting new Serial Queernecks

834

: 00:40:41

Sponsored Wrestling Federation.

835

: 00:40:44

This episode is brought to

you by Creaky Rocking Chair

836

: 00:40:47

versus the Fraying Lawn Chair.

837

: 00:40:50

Rocking chair is

representing the front porch.

838

: 00:40:52

All stars, hand carved hand me down

older than the house it's sitting in.

839

: 00:40:57

It doesn't move fast and it doesn't

move far, but it keeps time.

840

: 00:41:01

It knows every secret in the holler.

841

: 00:41:03

It remembers when you left and it

remembers when you came back and

842

: 00:41:06

it remembers that you were drunk.

843

: 00:41:09

Out in the yard.

844

: 00:41:09

Plastic legs sunk halfway into the

dirt is the fraying lawn chair flying.

845

: 00:41:14

The colors of the holler

tchotchke Alliance brought cheap,

846

: 00:41:18

folded, wrong sun bleached.

847

: 00:41:20

One more.

848

: 00:41:20

Sit away from catastrophic failure.

849

: 00:41:23

It's light enough to throw.

850

: 00:41:24

It's loud enough to be heard,

and it's young enough to believe

851

: 00:41:27

instability counts as a strategy

and also kind of a personality.

852

: 00:41:30

This is the Appalachian

Championship wrestling and the

853

: 00:41:34

porch is no longer neutral ground.

854

: 00:41:36

They don't yet touch.

855

: 00:41:37

The rocking chair settles

back on the boards and rocks

856

: 00:41:39

just enough to be heard creek.

857

: 00:41:42

It's not a threat, it's just a

reminder that it's been holding bodies

858

: 00:41:45

longer than this moment's been alive.

859

: 00:41:47

The lawn chair doesn't sit.

860

: 00:41:49

It just leans one leg bent, wrong

fabric pulling apart at the seam.

861

: 00:41:53

Aluminum frame buzzing in the heat

like it's daring someone to try it.

862

: 00:41:57

It shifts, scrapes folds

away, snaps back open.

863

: 00:42:00

It looks accidental.

864

: 00:42:01

If you don't know any better.

865

: 00:42:03

Behind the rocking chair, the

front court, all stars don't rush.

866

: 00:42:06

They lean in and they watch, and

they've seen this kind of thing before.

867

: 00:42:09

Out in the yard.

868

: 00:42:10

The Holler Tchotchke

Alliance won't stand still.

869

: 00:42:13

Somebody's pacing and

somebody's too close.

870

: 00:42:15

Nobody's pretending this

hasn't grown personal.

871

: 00:42:18

The porch creeks louder

and the yard goes quiet.

872

: 00:42:21

The French porch, all stars

say the porch is earned.

873

: 00:42:24

You sit here long enough

and you belong here.

874

: 00:42:26

That rocking chair has been in that

spot since before anyone remembers who

875

: 00:42:30

dragged it up, but the Holler Tchotchke

Alliance says the yard counts too.

876

: 00:42:33

It says you don't need

permission to pull up a chair.

877

: 00:42:36

It says, space gets claimed by showing up.

878

: 00:42:38

Last summer, somebody dragged the lawn

chair into the edge of the porch just

879

: 00:42:42

for a minute, just for shade, just

to see it scraped the boards and the

880

: 00:42:45

rocking chair didn't move an inch.

881

: 00:42:47

Nobody said anything.

882

: 00:42:48

That's how you know Come back next

week for episode two, the continuation.

883

: 00:42:53

beckc_27_02-04-2026_192751:

Well, that was fun.

884

: 00:42:55

dash_26_02-04-2026_182752: It's stupid.

885

: 00:42:56

This is what happens when you get bored.

886

: 00:42:57

beckc_27_02-04-2026_192751: I hear you.

887

: 00:42:58

I haven't felt that in a little while.

888

: 00:43:00

I've been so busy with school.

889

: 00:43:01

I feel like it's just thing after another.

890

: 00:43:04

dash_26_02-04-2026_182752: Yeah,

891

: 00:43:05

brisket.

892

: 00:43:06

Has found an odd position to sleep in.

893

: 00:43:08

Oh, they're getting famous at work

for interrupting everything I try to

894

: 00:43:11

do, ' cause the speakers are broken

on my Mac and so I have to use the

895

: 00:43:17

headphones every time I'm on Zoom.

896

: 00:43:19

And so the cats don't know who I'm

talking to 'cause, and I'm not sure

897

: 00:43:22

they would've figured it out anyway.

898

: 00:43:24

But they definitely think I'm

talking to myself 'cause they

899

: 00:43:26

don't hear anything I hear.

900

: 00:43:28

So I started meeting and ziggy's

up in my face like, what's wrong?

901

: 00:43:30

What's wrong?

902

: 00:43:31

Who are you talking to?

903

: 00:43:31

What's going on?

904

: 00:43:32

beckc_27_02-04-2026_192751: Do you

think they, what do you think they

905

: 00:43:34

think when they see us undressed

906

: 00:43:38

dash_26_02-04-2026_182752: Um,

907

: 00:43:39

beckc_27_02-04-2026_192751:

we've peeled our fur off,

908

: 00:43:41

dash_26_02-04-2026_182752: yeah.

909

: 00:43:43

beckc_27_02-04-2026_192751: that

must be so jarring for the, because

910

: 00:43:44

pet likes to come in the bathroom

when I'm showering and she'll

911

: 00:43:47

just stand there and look at me.

912

: 00:43:48

I think she's like, what are you doing?

913

: 00:43:50

dash_26_02-04-2026_182752: What

are you like, what happened?

914

: 00:43:52

I know that they definitely think

it's fucked up that I get into the

915

: 00:43:56

shower and after I am done with it or

whatever, then they'll be over there

916

: 00:44:02

like touching the wet floor, you know,

or, you know, brisket will lick parts,

917

: 00:44:08

like lick the, it's disgusting to me,

but I don't know, maybe they're just

918

: 00:44:13

trying to understand what the appeal is.

919

: 00:44:15

There's a woman on TikTok whose

cat likes to take showers, goes and

920

: 00:44:19

begs to have the shower turned on

and the door open and it just goes

921

: 00:44:22

and just hangs out under the water.

922

: 00:44:25

beckc_27_02-04-2026_192751: What a freak.

923

: 00:44:26

dash_26_02-04-2026_182752: It's been a

long time since I've given a cat a bath.

924

: 00:44:29

I see you got your hair cut.

925

: 00:44:31

beckc_27_02-04-2026_192751: Yeah.

926

: 00:44:31

I like it.

927

: 00:44:32

dash_26_02-04-2026_182752: Yeah, I do too.

928

: 00:44:33

beckc_27_02-04-2026_192751:

went extra short this time, so

929

: 00:44:35

dash_26_02-04-2026_182752: Yeah.

930

: 00:44:36

You gotta buy a nice fade.

931

: 00:44:37

beckc_27_02-04-2026_192751: yeah.

932

: 00:44:38

I like half my hair short.

933

: 00:44:40

I really enjoyed my time.

934

: 00:44:41

The, one of my favorite things

about being down there at mom's

935

: 00:44:43

was going to the barbershop,

936

: 00:44:45

dash_26_02-04-2026_182752: Yeah.

937

: 00:44:46

beckc_27_02-04-2026_192751: our, our

friend that you graduated with recently

938

: 00:44:48

when she lived down there with me, she

took me to the, the Black Barbershop.

939

: 00:44:52

And that was a really cool experience.

940

: 00:44:54

dash_26_02-04-2026_182752: Yeah.

941

: 00:44:55

I love black barbers.

942

: 00:44:56

beckc_27_02-04-2026_192751: Yeah, the

barber that she had me go to he was

943

: 00:44:59

in the same elementary school I was

in a year behind me, so we knew a lot

944

: 00:45:03

of the same people, so that was cool.

945

: 00:45:05

dash_26_02-04-2026_182752: Nice.

946

: 00:45:07

Learning how to navigate barbershops was,

uh, well, I mean, still not really done

947

: 00:45:12

it, but like, uh, after transitioning,

I remember asking somebody like, you

948

: 00:45:17

know, who's, I need to find a barber.

949

: 00:45:19

Like who's, who's the

barber you recommend?

950

: 00:45:21

And they went like, do you want

a black barber or a white barber?

951

: 00:45:24

And I was like, I don't feel

qualified to answer this question.

952

: 00:45:28

beckc_27_02-04-2026_192751:

My, my, the girl that cuts my

953

: 00:45:29

hair now, she's a queer woman.

954

: 00:45:31

She's in a straight facing relationship

right now, but she's a queer woman.

955

: 00:45:34

And we talk about a lot of different

things and we were talking about white

956

: 00:45:37

privilege and I said, even when you

go to beauty school, I said, they

957

: 00:45:41

don't teach you black hair, do you?

958

: 00:45:42

And she said, no.

959

: 00:45:43

She said, you know what?

960

: 00:45:43

They did teach me.

961

: 00:45:44

She said, the one thing they taught me

about black hair was how to do a relaxant.

962

: 00:45:48

How to, how to put a

relaxer in and, you know.

963

: 00:45:51

Yeah,

964

: 00:45:52

dash_26_02-04-2026_182752: So, so how

to, how to make it look more white.

965

: 00:45:55

beckc_27_02-04-2026_192751: yeah, exactly.

966

: 00:45:57

dash_26_02-04-2026_182752: Wow.

967

: 00:45:58

beckc_27_02-04-2026_192751: Because

if you need your hair done and you

968

: 00:46:00

live in Bowling Green, Ohio, you're

gonna be going and you're black.

969

: 00:46:03

You're going to either Toledo

or Detroit to get it done.

970

: 00:46:06

There's nowhere in BG that I know of.

971

: 00:46:08

Some, like on the BG like, uh, trade

page, sometimes you'll see girls post

972

: 00:46:14

on there, their students that they say

they can braid and stuff like that.

973

: 00:46:17

And I've heard other people say

there are people who are well known

974

: 00:46:20

on campus for being able to braid,

but unless you're like in on that,

975

: 00:46:23

you, you, there's nowhere to go.

976

: 00:46:26

dash_26_02-04-2026_182752: Yeah.

977

: 00:46:31

I actually learned to cut hair from the

girls that did braids at my undergrad

978

: 00:46:38

'cause I just happened to live with them.

979

: 00:46:39

The floor I lived on.

980

: 00:46:41

The girls who braided, like all the, it

was a lot of football players at first.

981

: 00:46:45

Like I think that they were friends with,

uh, a lot of those, girls came from Bryan

982

: 00:46:50

Station, the school there in Lexington.

983

: 00:46:53

And then they just made friends

with, the other black people

984

: 00:46:56

that needed their hair done, but

they didn't know how to cut hair.

985

: 00:46:59

And I was cutting my own hair and they

were like, we need somebody to do a

986

: 00:47:03

lineup before we can braid his hair.

987

: 00:47:05

Like his edges are awful like he needs.

988

: 00:47:08

And I was like, oh fuck.

989

: 00:47:09

I don't know what you're talking about.

990

: 00:47:10

I've got these clippers,

but if you explain what you

991

: 00:47:12

mean, I'll, I'll try my best.

992

: 00:47:14

And so like, we, we did the best we could,

but you know, there wasn't really like

993

: 00:47:20

Google yet, so I couldn't do any research.

994

: 00:47:23

I didn't have anybody to ask for help.

995

: 00:47:25

I'm sure I fucked up some people's hair.

996

: 00:47:28

beckc_27_02-04-2026_192751: I've

997

: 00:47:28

let cut my hair many times.

998

: 00:47:30

dash_26_02-04-2026_182752: Well, that

made me better at cutting my own hair.

999

: 00:47:32

Like that's probably why I can give myself

a phase because I learned how to, like a

: 1000

00:47:37,319 --> 00:47:43,629

big part of cutting textured hair with

clippers is like angling, like learn, like

: 1001

00:47:43,629 --> 00:47:48,339

learning how to actually manipulate the

angle of the thing and account for like

: 1002

00:47:48,739 --> 00:47:51,079

the way skin moves under textured hair.

: 1003

00:47:51,479 --> 00:47:53,669

I could be a, I don't think

I could be a barber though.

: 1004

00:47:54,069 --> 00:47:54,519

-: 2026

: 1005

00:47:54,729 --> 00:47:57,744

My years as a photographer

taught me I couldn't do a, a,

: 1006

00:47:57,864 --> 00:47:59,439

a public facing job like that

: 1007

00:47:59,934 --> 00:48:00,384

-: 2026

: 1008

00:48:00,429 --> 00:48:02,379

-: 2026

constantly your talent on display

: 1009

00:48:02,779 --> 00:48:05,064

-: 2026

it's so personality forward.

: 1010

00:48:05,657 --> 00:48:08,267

-: 2026

expect you to be on it every time.

: 1011

00:48:08,267 --> 00:48:08,777

And you

: 1012

00:48:08,807 --> 00:48:09,097

-: 2026

: 1013

00:48:09,347 --> 00:48:10,877

-: 2026

and you had bad days, you know,

: 1014

00:48:11,277 --> 00:48:11,397

-: 2026

: 1015

00:48:11,797 --> 00:48:15,457

And I'm just such an, I'm just

such a cunt now, you know?

: 1016

00:48:15,487 --> 00:48:19,902

Like, if I don't like somebody, I

cannot, I, I, I, I could force myself

: 1017

00:48:19,902 --> 00:48:23,232

to interact with them, but not for

very long and not for more than once.

: 1018

00:48:24,670 --> 00:48:25,120

-: 2026

: 1019

00:48:25,360 --> 00:48:28,450

Like, and if I never have to do

Christmas photos of anybody ever

: 1020

00:48:28,450 --> 00:48:30,340

again in my life, it will be too soon.

: 1021

00:48:30,640 --> 00:48:33,790

I hated doing Christmas

photos of families.

: 1022

00:48:34,180 --> 00:48:35,470

Oh God.

: 1023

00:48:35,870 --> 00:48:38,750

kids were always in itchy outfits and, oh,

: 1024

00:48:39,150 --> 00:48:40,815

-: 2026

and the parent and I'm, we're

: 1025

00:48:40,815 --> 00:48:43,665

like, the parents are always

like, aren't my kids just perfect?

: 1026

00:48:43,665 --> 00:48:44,925

They're the best ones,

: 1027

00:48:45,325 --> 00:48:45,545

-: 2026

: 1028

00:48:45,650 --> 00:48:46,970

-: 2026

but also I hate them.

: 1029

00:48:47,000 --> 00:48:47,210

If

: 1030

00:48:48,051 --> 00:48:50,481

will you bring a n of

Appalachian interest?

: 1031

00:48:50,496 --> 00:48:55,516

-: 2026

brought a, uh, a regional one today.

: 1032

00:48:55,916 --> 00:48:56,366

All right.

: 1033

00:48:56,436 --> 00:48:59,856

This week's down of Appalachian

interest is a eight one

: 1034

00:49:00,441 --> 00:49:00,741

-: 2026

: 1035

00:49:02,505 --> 00:49:04,395

-: 2026

to friends, family, and gas station

: 1036

00:49:04,395 --> 00:49:06,675

clerks as a eight one A eight.

: 1037

00:49:06,675 --> 00:49:10,065

One comes from Winchester, Kentucky

and started with a ma, a man named

: 1038

00:49:10,065 --> 00:49:14,745

GI Wayne Scott, who had already

een bottling soda there since: 1902

: 1039

00:49:15,135 --> 00:49:20,145

Before Ailey, he, he made, uh, Rocka

Cola, but in the: 1920

: 1040

00:49:20,145 --> 00:49:23,985

try something different using what he

had learned about ginger based drinks

: 1041

00:49:23,985 --> 00:49:27,525

while traveling in Northern Europe,

Wayne Scott developed a new recipe

: 1042

00:49:27,525 --> 00:49:29,925

and started bottling it in: 1926

: 1043

00:49:30,240 --> 00:49:34,620

He even held a naming contest and a

late one won, meaning that it was the

: 1044

00:49:34,620 --> 00:49:38,430

newest thing on the market, which folks

quickly shortened to a L eight one.

: 1045

00:49:38,910 --> 00:49:42,330

By the: 1930

well enough that Wayne Scott bought

: 1046

00:49:42,330 --> 00:49:45,904

an old Livery stable and turned

it into a bottling plant, which

: 1047

00:49:45,904 --> 00:49:47,674

feels exactly right for Kentucky.

: 1048

00:49:48,124 --> 00:49:52,654

When he died in the: 1940

did something unusual and split ownership

: 1049

00:49:52,654 --> 00:49:54,574

between his wife and his employees.

: 1050

00:49:54,974 --> 00:49:58,754

Eventually the business ended up with

a Rogers family who still run it today.

: 1051

00:49:59,054 --> 00:50:02,594

By the: 1970

every other drink just to focus on a L

: 1052

00:50:02,594 --> 00:50:05,924

eight one, which tells you everything

you need to know about priorities.

: 1053

00:50:06,404 --> 00:50:09,824

The recipe itself is a family secret,

guarded closely enough that only a

: 1054

00:50:09,824 --> 00:50:11,324

couple of people are said to know it.

: 1055

00:50:11,654 --> 00:50:15,614

What people do know is that it has less

caffeine than most big name sodas and

: 1056

00:50:15,614 --> 00:50:19,214

that it tastes like ginger citrus and a

little bit of stubborn regional pride.

: 1057

00:50:19,574 --> 00:50:23,474

Over the years, AATE has branched out

into zero sugar versions and seasonal

: 1058

00:50:23,474 --> 00:50:27,224

flavors, but the original Green

Bottle still does most of the talking.

: 1059

00:50:27,674 --> 00:50:30,584

For a long time, you could

only find Aate one in parts of

: 1060

00:50:30,584 --> 00:50:34,154

Kentucky, which made it feel like

a local handshake in liquid form.

: 1061

00:50:34,394 --> 00:50:37,544

Now, you can spot it further away,

especially if you walk into a Cracker

: 1062

00:50:37,544 --> 00:50:39,791

Barrel, but it still feels tied to home.

: 1063

00:50:40,121 --> 00:50:42,597

People who grow up with it miss

it when they leave, and people who

: 1064

00:50:42,597 --> 00:50:44,607

stay, feel defensive in a loving way.

: 1065

00:50:44,607 --> 00:50:47,847

When outsiders ask what it

tastes like, a eight one is not

: 1066

00:50:47,847 --> 00:50:49,167

trying to compete with anyone.

: 1067

00:50:49,167 --> 00:50:53,997

It has already outlasted trend, soda wars,

and several generation of taste tests.

: 1068

00:50:54,147 --> 00:50:57,177

It just shows up cold and

dependable like it always has.

: 1069

00:50:57,507 --> 00:50:59,667

Uh, that's this week's nand

of Appalachian interest.

: 1070

00:50:59,667 --> 00:51:00,177

Open it.

: 1071

00:51:00,417 --> 00:51:03,507

Take a sip and understand that

you're drinking history with bubbles.

: 1072

00:51:04,395 --> 00:51:04,725

Are you a

: 1073

00:51:04,725 --> 00:51:05,895

fan of the a L eight one?

: 1074

00:51:06,295 --> 00:51:07,795

-: 2026

: 1075

00:51:08,155 --> 00:51:13,915

Uh, I love the gingery flavor,

but it is so much sugar.

: 1076

00:51:13,945 --> 00:51:14,995

It's so sweet.

: 1077

00:51:15,305 --> 00:51:20,785

it's like almost syrupy to me that I

get like thirstier the longer I drink

: 1078

00:51:20,785 --> 00:51:23,085

it and I have to have water after I,

: 1079

00:51:23,579 --> 00:51:25,469

-: 2026

how I feel about Welch's grape soda.

: 1080

00:51:25,854 --> 00:51:26,144

Yeah.

: 1081

00:51:26,429 --> 00:51:26,699

-: 2026

: 1082

00:51:26,699 --> 00:51:27,539

Oh yeah.

: 1083

00:51:27,639 --> 00:51:30,549

No, I, I love L eight and the,

well we called it L eight.

: 1084

00:51:30,549 --> 00:51:31,119

I don't know.

: 1085

00:51:31,149 --> 00:51:34,059

I know it's L eight one, but

the whole time I was in school,

: 1086

00:51:34,059 --> 00:51:35,109

we just called it L eight.

: 1087

00:51:35,509 --> 00:51:40,159

They've got a diet version now and

they also have several flavors other

: 1088

00:51:40,159 --> 00:51:45,499

than the, the standard ginger and

lemon lime soda type mix thing.

: 1089

00:51:45,499 --> 00:51:49,449

It is, there's a cherry one

and an orange one, I think.

: 1090

00:51:49,849 --> 00:51:50,809

Oh, black cherry.

: 1091

00:51:50,839 --> 00:51:51,139

Yeah.

: 1092

00:51:51,139 --> 00:51:52,189

And it's good too.

: 1093

00:51:52,539 --> 00:51:54,639

-: 2026

thought about doing cheer wine, but a

: 1094

00:51:54,969 --> 00:51:57,309

wine sounded felt more at home to me.

: 1095

00:51:57,759 --> 00:52:00,069

So, because Cheer wine

is more North Carolina.

: 1096

00:52:00,379 --> 00:52:02,839

So I went with, with

the a, the, the Kentucky

: 1097

00:52:03,239 --> 00:52:06,914

-: 2026

cheerwine, but I, I only recently learned

: 1098

00:52:06,914 --> 00:52:09,614

about cheerwine because I was on the road.

: 1099

00:52:10,014 --> 00:52:10,464

yeah.

: 1100

00:52:10,464 --> 00:52:11,574

And it.

: 1101

00:52:11,974 --> 00:52:15,854

Is it just black cherry

flavored like bubble drink or

: 1102

00:52:16,254 --> 00:52:16,644

-: 2026

What do you mean

: 1103

00:52:16,749 --> 00:52:17,049

-: 2026

: 1104

00:52:17,214 --> 00:52:17,634

-: 2026

: 1105

00:52:17,859 --> 00:52:20,649

-: 2026

like a soda or is it like a lemonade?

: 1106

00:52:20,874 --> 00:52:21,684

-: 2026

It's like a soda.

: 1107

00:52:22,084 --> 00:52:22,414

-: 2026

: 1108

00:52:22,814 --> 00:52:23,204

Yeah.

: 1109

00:52:23,624 --> 00:52:28,794

I, I never heard of it until I went on

the road in eastern Kentucky and people,

: 1110

00:52:29,194 --> 00:52:34,724

they were selling, they sold it at all

the little like Derry bar type diners.

: 1111

00:52:34,944 --> 00:52:35,234

-: 2026

: 1112

00:52:35,354 --> 00:52:36,434

-: 2026

what the hell is cheer wine?

: 1113

00:52:36,834 --> 00:52:38,699

-: 2026

discovered it when I went to North

: 1114

00:52:38,699 --> 00:52:42,849

Carolina one time to the outer banks with

my friend and it was everywhere down there

: 1115

00:52:42,849 --> 00:52:44,199

and I was like, well, I gotta try that.

: 1116

00:52:44,599 --> 00:52:46,399

-: 2026

North Carolina is gorgeous.

: 1117

00:52:46,399 --> 00:52:50,029

I've only been there a few times for

very specific reasons, but like the Blue

: 1118

00:52:50,029 --> 00:52:53,899

Ridge Mountains just absolutely gorgeous.

: 1119

00:52:53,959 --> 00:52:55,099

And they also.

: 1120

00:52:55,499 --> 00:52:59,369

Because there is so much

shoreline there, both freshwater

: 1121

00:52:59,369 --> 00:53:01,829

and is there a marine as well?

: 1122

00:53:01,829 --> 00:53:03,389

I don't know shit about geography.

: 1123

00:53:03,389 --> 00:53:06,029

Does, does North Carolina

border the ocean?

: 1124

00:53:06,449 --> 00:53:07,139

-: 2026

: 1125

00:53:07,449 --> 00:53:07,959

-: 2026

: 1126

00:53:08,109 --> 00:53:08,259

-: 2026

: 1127

00:53:08,259 --> 00:53:09,129

absolutely does.

: 1128

00:53:09,619 --> 00:53:10,699

-: 2026

was pretty sure it did.

: 1129

00:53:12,415 --> 00:53:18,270

But I, because I would go there with

this ex of mine, uh, to Greensboro and

: 1130

00:53:18,270 --> 00:53:20,770

we would always go to this oyster bar.

: 1131

00:53:20,920 --> 00:53:22,270

Have you ever been to an oyster bar?

: 1132

00:53:22,505 --> 00:53:24,340

-: 2026

allergic to most seafood, so no.

: 1133

00:53:24,740 --> 00:53:25,310

-: 2026

: 1134

00:53:25,580 --> 00:53:27,890

I'm sure this would get you, but it's just

: 1135

00:53:27,890 --> 00:53:28,400

um,

: 1136

00:53:28,400 --> 00:53:29,720

-: 2026

when you cook it outta the ocean.

: 1137

00:53:29,720 --> 00:53:31,280

I'm allergic to 'cause the iodine.

: 1138

00:53:31,680 --> 00:53:32,130

-: 2026

: 1139

00:53:32,340 --> 00:53:32,700

Okay.

: 1140

00:53:32,730 --> 00:53:34,710

-: 2026

Yeah, iodine and peppermint oil.

: 1141

00:53:35,110 --> 00:53:36,730

-: 2026

these didn't, they were steamed and

: 1142

00:53:36,730 --> 00:53:38,230

they didn't change colors, but that.

: 1143

00:53:38,630 --> 00:53:41,175

I still wouldn't trust it 'cause

they're technically shellfish, but they,

: 1144

00:53:41,180 --> 00:53:43,880

they also might have been freshwater.

: 1145

00:53:44,090 --> 00:53:46,970

I don't have a ton of experience with

these oysters, and they weren't like

: 1146

00:53:46,970 --> 00:53:51,030

anything else I've seen, like, like,

uh, oysters on the half shell, these

: 1147

00:53:51,030 --> 00:53:53,130

were steamed and they would shuck 'em.

: 1148

00:53:53,130 --> 00:53:57,405

And then they had different dipping things

and it was just a, just a dude with a, a

: 1149

00:53:57,650 --> 00:54:01,016

really thick, crooked tool of some kind.

: 1150

00:54:01,316 --> 00:54:07,796

Just, uh, pulling oysters, big ass oysters

out of this steamer and cracking 'em open.

: 1151

00:54:07,796 --> 00:54:11,246

And he would just like blo, bloop,

bloop, throw them into our plates

: 1152

00:54:11,246 --> 00:54:12,776

and we would dip 'em in stuff.

: 1153

00:54:13,046 --> 00:54:13,856

They're delicious.

: 1154

00:54:13,856 --> 00:54:18,616

I've never, I've never had them since,

but I was like, North Carolina became a

: 1155

00:54:18,616 --> 00:54:23,206

magical realm in my mind when I had that,

like driving through the mountains and

: 1156

00:54:23,206 --> 00:54:29,036

then finding this beautiful like seaside,

but like also mountainous place with this

: 1157

00:54:29,456 --> 00:54:31,556

amazing food I'd never even heard of.

: 1158

00:54:31,956 --> 00:54:32,616

What's cool?

: 1159

00:54:33,016 --> 00:54:34,876

-: 2026

dad lived in Southern Virginia and

: 1160

00:54:34,876 --> 00:54:37,966

when he was in hospice, I went down

there a couple of times and got

: 1161

00:54:37,966 --> 00:54:39,556

to drive the Blue Ridge Mountains.

: 1162

00:54:39,556 --> 00:54:40,786

It was beautiful.

: 1163

00:54:41,186 --> 00:54:41,576

-: 2026

: 1164

00:54:41,666 --> 00:54:42,416

-: 2026

: 1165

00:54:42,816 --> 00:54:47,206

-: 2026

music festival called Merl Fest that

: 1166

00:54:47,206 --> 00:54:51,513

used to be in Wilkesboro, North Carolina.

: 1167

00:54:51,913 --> 00:54:52,393

Oh my God.

: 1168

00:54:52,393 --> 00:54:53,203

They're still having it.

: 1169

00:54:53,603 --> 00:54:56,573

This is like a leg, a

legit music festival.

: 1170

00:54:56,573 --> 00:54:58,733

Like I met Ricky Scaggs here.

: 1171

00:54:59,133 --> 00:55:03,883

Some friends of mine from Williamsburg

went every year and like literally

: 1172

00:55:03,883 --> 00:55:04,813

every year, like clockwork.

: 1173

00:55:04,813 --> 00:55:05,953

And they were also all musicians.

: 1174

00:55:05,953 --> 00:55:08,863

All these, they were all these old

dudes that I learned to play music

: 1175

00:55:08,863 --> 00:55:10,783

with, uh, bluegrass musicians.

: 1176

00:55:11,083 --> 00:55:12,733

And I went with them like twice.

: 1177

00:55:12,733 --> 00:55:16,263

I didn't go when I, when I was in college,

: 1178

00:55:16,463 --> 00:55:19,253

-: 2026

friend that tours with different, uh,

: 1179

00:55:19,553 --> 00:55:23,843

she's a merch manager for several bands

and she tours all the different festivals

: 1180

00:55:23,843 --> 00:55:25,193

and everything, and that's her job.

: 1181

00:55:25,417 --> 00:55:26,767

I thought that would be an

interesting way to live.

: 1182

00:55:27,566 --> 00:55:27,856

-: 2026

: 1183

00:55:28,546 --> 00:55:29,431

Merch, girl,

: 1184

00:55:29,831 --> 00:55:30,701

when is spring,

: 1185

00:55:31,101 --> 00:55:33,441

-: 2026

break is about five, four weeks away.

: 1186

00:55:33,441 --> 00:55:38,991

Septe, or, or September, uh, March

2nd, I believe is when spring break is.

: 1187

00:55:39,231 --> 00:55:39,681

So

: 1188

00:55:40,081 --> 00:55:42,721

-: 2026

still gonna be snow on the ground, so.

: 1189

00:55:42,811 --> 00:55:43,921

-: 2026

is supposed to be in the forties

: 1190

00:55:43,921 --> 00:55:45,331

this week of this coming week?

: 1191

00:55:45,331 --> 00:55:47,926

Well, we're supposed to get two

inches of snow Friday, but then next

: 1192

00:55:47,926 --> 00:55:51,571

week is supposed to get up to 40

degrees, so we might get some melting.

: 1193

00:55:51,971 --> 00:55:53,771

I'm so sick of the snow everywhere.

: 1194

00:55:54,171 --> 00:55:54,461

-: 2026

: 1195

00:55:54,586 --> 00:55:55,906

-: 2026

We had nine days in a row

: 1196

00:55:55,906 --> 00:55:57,556

where it was below 20 degrees.

: 1197

00:55:57,956 --> 00:55:59,826

-: 2026

it's been, I think we're gonna

: 1198

00:55:59,826 --> 00:56:02,446

get above, above 20 at least.

: 1199

00:56:02,846 --> 00:56:05,516

-: 2026

it was like 27 yesterday, and it

: 1200

00:56:05,516 --> 00:56:06,746

was like a heat wave out there.

: 1201

00:56:06,746 --> 00:56:08,726

I didn't wear my gloves

or my scarf or anything.

: 1202

00:56:09,191 --> 00:56:11,111

-: 2026

gonna get above freezing next week.

: 1203

00:56:11,511 --> 00:56:12,051

-: 2026

: 1204

00:56:12,451 --> 00:56:15,821

-: 2026

gonna go see, send Help this weekend.

: 1205

00:56:16,221 --> 00:56:20,071

It's a horror movie

directed by Sam Raimi who.

: 1206

00:56:20,471 --> 00:56:24,191

He made the Evil Dead movies and

he made that movie Drag Me to Hell.

: 1207

00:56:24,191 --> 00:56:28,431

He's, he, I, I really like him, but

I can also can't figure him out.

: 1208

00:56:28,831 --> 00:56:33,741

But he, something he does is

he loves to, well he has very

: 1209

00:56:33,741 --> 00:56:36,421

interesting female characters

: 1210

00:56:36,531 --> 00:56:38,211

and I love Rachel McAdams.

: 1211

00:56:38,611 --> 00:56:41,501

She can make, she can sell me many things.

: 1212

00:56:41,921 --> 00:56:42,341

-: 2026

: 1213

00:56:42,741 --> 00:56:45,651

-: 2026

seen that Disobedience movie with her?

: 1214

00:56:45,891 --> 00:56:46,251

-: 2026

: 1215

00:56:46,651 --> 00:56:50,761

-: 2026

lesbian movie with her and Rachel Weicz.

: 1216

00:56:51,221 --> 00:56:53,051

I, I'd never heard of it.

: 1217

00:56:53,081 --> 00:56:59,321

But it's like, it's about, these two

women who reunite at a, a funeral.

: 1218

00:56:59,384 --> 00:57:03,354

They knew each other in childhood,

and they were like intimate, you know,

: 1219

00:57:03,354 --> 00:57:07,314

they were like learning that each of

them was attracted to girls together,

: 1220

00:57:07,314 --> 00:57:14,014

but they're from a it, but this very

like a strict orthodox Jewish faith.

: 1221

00:57:14,614 --> 00:57:18,514

so Rachel Weiss's character moves away

and then she comes back and they sort

: 1222

00:57:18,514 --> 00:57:20,044

of take up this relationship again.

: 1223

00:57:20,134 --> 00:57:24,944

And the whole time we know we were

like seeing Rachel McAdams character.

: 1224

00:57:25,334 --> 00:57:28,664

She's in this wig, it's called

frum this culture, and it's

: 1225

00:57:28,664 --> 00:57:31,464

very reserved and conservative.

: 1226

00:57:31,464 --> 00:57:34,974

And so they, they cover their real

hair with this, with these wigs

: 1227

00:57:34,974 --> 00:57:38,784

that are a particular style, kind

of the way, you know how Pentecostal

: 1228

00:57:38,784 --> 00:57:40,284

have their own style and stuff.

: 1229

00:57:40,284 --> 00:57:42,634

You can kind of clock them,

kind of like that, right?

: 1230

00:57:42,634 --> 00:57:44,824

Very conservative and very like specific.

: 1231

00:57:45,224 --> 00:57:49,304

And, you know, you're like, oh, okay,

well they had a thing, but maybe

: 1232

00:57:49,304 --> 00:57:51,294

they're, she's married now, right?

: 1233

00:57:51,294 --> 00:57:55,324

She married their, uh, this dude that

they were friends with and stuff, and

: 1234

00:57:55,324 --> 00:58:00,404

then all of a sudden they go to this,

they, they wind up doing something

: 1235

00:58:00,404 --> 00:58:04,724

together on some day and they start

like making out, and then they go to

: 1236

00:58:04,724 --> 00:58:07,574

this hotel and have the nastiest sex.

: 1237

00:58:07,974 --> 00:58:09,894

It was so great.

: 1238

00:58:12,341 --> 00:58:12,631

-: 2026

: 1239

00:58:12,661 --> 00:58:14,151

blue, is the warmest color nasty

: 1240

00:58:14,516 --> 00:58:15,131

-: 2026

: 1241

00:58:15,131 --> 00:58:20,171

Like actually hot, you know, like

actually like, you know, a little

: 1242

00:58:20,171 --> 00:58:24,011

choreographed because it's a movie

and they have to, you know, whatever.

: 1243

00:58:24,011 --> 00:58:26,801

But it wasn't male gazy.

: 1244

00:58:26,831 --> 00:58:31,561

It wasn't I mean, I, that I, I swear

to God, I think there was fisting and

: 1245

00:58:31,561 --> 00:58:33,091

blue in the blue is the warmest color.

: 1246

00:58:33,241 --> 00:58:33,781

Like that

: 1247

00:58:33,826 --> 00:58:33,886

-: 2026

: 1248

00:58:34,111 --> 00:58:35,461

-: 2026

: 1249

00:58:35,461 --> 00:58:35,851

Right.

: 1250

00:58:36,251 --> 00:58:37,301

So not like that.

: 1251

00:58:37,301 --> 00:58:39,281

Like it, it seemed like it was real sex.

: 1252

00:58:39,281 --> 00:58:44,771

And, but there was this, like, at the

end after, you know, after they have, uh,

: 1253

00:58:44,801 --> 00:58:48,371

you know, finished with the most vigorous

bits, they're just kinda lying there

: 1254

00:58:48,371 --> 00:58:54,231

together, you know, giggling and, uh, I

think it's Rachel Weicz is lying on top

: 1255

00:58:54,231 --> 00:58:58,041

of Rachel McAdams and she's looking up

at her and she holds her tongue out and

: 1256

00:58:58,041 --> 00:59:00,544

Rachel Weiss spits in her fucking mouth.

: 1257

00:59:01,017 --> 00:59:01,137

-: 2026

: 1258

00:59:01,691 --> 00:59:05,531

-: 2026

disgusting, but also oddly sweet,

: 1259

00:59:07,511 --> 00:59:08,811

like, okay,

: 1260

00:59:11,041 --> 00:59:13,441

I've never seen anything like this movie.

: 1261

00:59:13,984 --> 00:59:14,584

-: 2026

What's the name

: 1262

00:59:14,584 --> 00:59:15,184

of it again?

: 1263

00:59:15,394 --> 00:59:16,864

-: 2026

It's called disobedience.

: 1264

00:59:17,134 --> 00:59:18,334

-: 2026

: 1265

00:59:18,394 --> 00:59:18,514

Okay.

: 1266

00:59:18,934 --> 00:59:19,894

-: 2026

: 1267

00:59:19,894 --> 00:59:21,394

You know, I even liked the ending.

: 1268

00:59:21,394 --> 00:59:23,764

I don't, Cameron Esposito said something.

: 1269

00:59:23,764 --> 00:59:26,644

She, she didn't, she, she was

like, I liked it until the ending.

: 1270

00:59:26,644 --> 00:59:27,454

It doesn't have a good ending.

: 1271

00:59:27,454 --> 00:59:29,644

And it's like, it has a good ending.

: 1272

00:59:29,824 --> 00:59:31,264

She leaves her husband.

: 1273

00:59:31,384 --> 00:59:33,184

It just, we don't know what happens next.

: 1274

00:59:33,184 --> 00:59:36,589

She doesn't like just jump

directly into a U-Haul with Rachel

: 1275

00:59:36,589 --> 00:59:38,554

Weiss before the movie's over.

: 1276

00:59:38,884 --> 00:59:40,774

She's in a transitional period, right?

: 1277

00:59:40,774 --> 00:59:44,654

Like, it's just because your ship didn't

happen doesn't mean it's queer baiting.

: 1278

00:59:45,717 --> 00:59:47,697

She's still queer when the movie ends.

: 1279

00:59:47,697 --> 00:59:47,937

Right.

: 1280

00:59:47,937 --> 00:59:49,017

She has her awakening.

: 1281

00:59:49,017 --> 00:59:50,637

She knows who she is and stuff.

: 1282

00:59:50,637 --> 00:59:51,477

It's a good ending.

: 1283

00:59:51,477 --> 00:59:52,977

It's just not what you wanted.

: 1284

00:59:53,307 --> 00:59:56,067

And they'll probably get back together

anyway because they were just so cute.

: 1285

00:59:56,467 --> 00:59:58,357

But yeah, it's, it was intense.

: 1286

00:59:58,477 --> 01:00:00,817

And there's this cool thing

about faith in it too.

: 1287

01:00:00,817 --> 01:00:04,731

Like this, the guy she's

married to is um, I don't know

: 1288

01:00:04,731 --> 01:00:06,861

the words for kinds of Jewish.

: 1289

01:00:07,261 --> 01:00:11,701

Uh, church leaders and things, but

he's on this path to become the

: 1290

01:00:11,701 --> 01:00:15,377

main guy in their, uh, little sect.

: 1291

01:00:15,777 --> 01:00:21,742

And he has this crisis and it, his,

his story's interesting too, so yeah,

: 1292

01:00:21,857 --> 01:00:25,367

I recommend it, but I, I was like,

I actually kind of like clutched

: 1293

01:00:25,367 --> 01:00:26,987

my pearls a little when I saw that

: 1294

01:00:29,531 --> 01:00:32,051

because they also like, it just

cuts to it and there, there she is.

: 1295

01:00:32,321 --> 01:00:32,711

And I was like,

: 1296

01:00:33,974 --> 01:00:34,054

-: 2026

: 1297

01:00:34,339 --> 01:00:35,929

-: 2026

not this, I'm not this gay.

: 1298

01:00:36,329 --> 01:00:37,949

-: 2026

my students tonight asked me what I

: 1299

01:00:37,949 --> 01:00:41,889

thought of RuPaul's Drag Race, and

I was like, appreciate the armed

: 1300

01:00:41,889 --> 01:00:43,689

form, but it's too gay for me.

: 1301

01:00:43,989 --> 01:00:45,579

You know, which is the truth.

: 1302

01:00:45,999 --> 01:00:47,529

I just don't like the stereotypes.

: 1303

01:00:47,529 --> 01:00:52,029

And when people are acting very stereo,

like gay stereotypes, I can't handle it.

: 1304

01:00:52,029 --> 01:00:52,539

It just,

: 1305

01:00:52,614 --> 01:00:53,259

-: 2026

: 1306

01:00:53,659 --> 01:00:58,519

Even Ru girls, like they start criticizing

as soon as they come off of it.

: 1307

01:00:58,519 --> 01:01:02,639

Like it's very much a means to

an end and they are manipulated.

: 1308

01:01:02,919 --> 01:01:05,229

-: 2026

if I thought they were doing blaccent and

: 1309

01:01:05,229 --> 01:01:09,729

if that was okay, and I was like, they're

absolutely doing blaccent, some of them.

: 1310

01:01:10,039 --> 01:01:11,989

And it's a cultural, it's

cultural appropriation.

: 1311

01:01:12,049 --> 01:01:14,779

If they're not black, then

they're absolutely doing that.

: 1312

01:01:15,179 --> 01:01:15,659

So

: 1313

01:01:15,934 --> 01:01:16,054

-: 2026

: 1314

01:01:16,079 --> 01:01:17,279

-: 2026

thought it was a cool question.

: 1315

01:01:17,679 --> 01:01:17,899

-: 2026

: 1316

01:01:18,144 --> 01:01:19,619

Yeah, it's critical thinking.

: 1317

01:01:20,019 --> 01:01:20,309

-: 2026

: 1318

01:01:20,709 --> 01:01:22,149

-: 2026

well what's, what's for dinner?

: 1319

01:01:22,549 --> 01:01:24,139

-: 2026

we had Bob Evans for dinner.

: 1320

01:01:24,539 --> 01:01:25,349

-: 2026

: 1321

01:01:25,529 --> 01:01:28,339

-: 2026

They have a new thing for $25.

: 1322

01:01:28,339 --> 01:01:33,739

You get uh, two three piece chicken

tender meal with two sides and a salad

: 1323

01:01:34,129 --> 01:01:35,959

and you get a cake and an ice cream.

: 1324

01:01:35,959 --> 01:01:35,989

A

: 1325

01:01:36,189 --> 01:01:38,859

-: 2026

was trying to find some junk food at

: 1326

01:01:38,859 --> 01:01:43,459

the store when I was over there, but

I'm having a hard time feeling hungry.

: 1327

01:01:43,684 --> 01:01:44,134

-: 2026

: 1328

01:01:44,534 --> 01:01:46,274

-: 2026

Well, let's get off of here.

: 1329

01:01:46,674 --> 01:01:49,344

Everyone, thanks for hanging

out with us for another week.

: 1330

01:01:49,554 --> 01:01:52,054

Thanks for all the comments.

: 1331

01:01:52,114 --> 01:01:57,890

Uh, we got a comment on um, YouTube,

I think too, from Techno Pop-Tart.

: 1332

01:01:58,010 --> 01:02:00,300

I forget what I think

they were talking about.

: 1333

01:02:00,330 --> 01:02:01,110

Oh, passions.

: 1334

01:02:01,110 --> 01:02:02,790

They were saying how

much they appreciated.

: 1335

01:02:02,790 --> 01:02:05,870

That was their that was

their favorite story.

: 1336

01:02:06,270 --> 01:02:06,540

Uh,

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to watch some episodes on on YouTube.

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Should y'all, should

we react to some soaps?

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we should, we should pick something else.

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I don't know about a movie, but we

should pick something else to, to

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maybe not like a full on review or

we could do a review, but something

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that's just like watching silly shit.

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Do you know what I saw somebody talking

about on, uh, social media how like,

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uh, queer people love a YouTube night.

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I felt so seen.

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It's so true.

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Like we would sit over at Eric's and

just like pass his PlayStation controller

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back and forth and take turns picking

YouTube vid things to watch on YouTube.

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Like some, sometimes we

would pick music videos.

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Sometimes we would like

remember dumb shit.

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Sometimes something crazy,

which like suggest itself.

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more YouTube than I do my other

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apps, the ones that I pay for.

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'cause we keep YouTube on the tv and

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watch a lot of like new shows and

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comedy shows and I have some, some

people that I follow on there and,

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We, we should, maybe we should do

a little reaction, uh, thing to

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some of our favorite YouTube stuff.

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We could have a YouTube party.

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actually, there's an, there's a bot

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for that in Discord, but that's a,

I'll do some thinking about it and

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see if there's an easy way to do it.

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Well, everybody be good or be good at it.

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And Oh, uh, if you haven't, you know, if

you're, if you're new to us, we got some

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new listeners, some new like international

listeners you know, give us a, give us

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a little five star review or whatever

it is on whatever app you listen to.

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Just kind of help people find us.

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We appreciate you and um, be safe

and say hi to your mom and them.

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